My heart was majorly broken two times within the span of two years. The end of those relationships really hurt me and with this current breakup with JP, there are times that I am struggling to get back to my old, optimistic self. I'm slowly getting there though. But I don't think I will ever be the same. A lot has changed within me in my year and a half of knowing JP. My core is still the same, but aspects of me have changed, some for the good and some for the bad. JP caused me to grow in ways that really pushed me to be better, brought out some bad coping mechanisms, prepared me to move to the next level in relationships, and taught me a lot about who I am and what I need (I'll write about this later). In many ways, I feel like I have leveled up as a person, even though I at times feel like I am careening down a mountain and falling apart. Overall, I have grown, become something greater, and gained more knowledge about myself and relationships that will allow me to be a better man, husband, and father.
Lately, I've been so focused on the future (where I want to be) and the past (what I once had), that I've neglected the present. I've let my work slide. I've lost motivation. I've lost my sense of fulfillment. I day dream all the time (only bad because it gets in the way). I've stopped doing things that I love. I've become lazy. I'm unfocused. I need to be better about focusing on the present and living in the moment. There is so much going on and that I need to accomplish that I need to remember what I am supposed to be doing, instead of remembering the past, dreaming of the future that never will be, and focusing on a future that I want.
A couple weeks ago, I read an article and this quote stood out to me.
Today, I'm right where I am supposed to be. Today, I will learn something that will help me get where I want to be. Today, there will a lesson that will make me a better person. Today, I need to live in the here and now. Today will help me get to where I want to be.
Lately, I've been so focused on the future (where I want to be) and the past (what I once had), that I've neglected the present. I've let my work slide. I've lost motivation. I've lost my sense of fulfillment. I day dream all the time (only bad because it gets in the way). I've stopped doing things that I love. I've become lazy. I'm unfocused. I need to be better about focusing on the present and living in the moment. There is so much going on and that I need to accomplish that I need to remember what I am supposed to be doing, instead of remembering the past, dreaming of the future that never will be, and focusing on a future that I want.
A couple weeks ago, I read an article and this quote stood out to me.
Sometimes if we’re not yet where we want to be in life, maybe we’re right we’re supposed to be. That idea helps me keep trucking along, keep dreaming, keep working, keep rigging up problems with experimental solutions. -Nicole from The Art of SimpleIn my pursuit to learn from my mistakes and try to be the best boyfriend, father, husband and have the amazing life that I dream of, I have neglected the present. The ideal that I see ahead of myself isn't always the best to be focusing on. Sure it is what I want and it is a good long term goal, BUT I need to remember where I currently am at and not discouraged. Just because I'm not where I want to be in life, doesn't mean that I am not getting there. I will get to where I want to be in life. I just need to be better about being patient and learning the lessons life is giving me now. These lessons will teach me to be better and will help me get to where I want to be.
Today, I'm right where I am supposed to be. Today, I will learn something that will help me get where I want to be. Today, there will a lesson that will make me a better person. Today, I need to live in the here and now. Today will help me get to where I want to be.
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