Precious Life

Yesterday was a hard day for me.

Yesterday a friend passed away in the worst way.

Yesterday I struggled with many emotions and cried.

Yesterday I missed JP and just wanted to have him hold me while I cried.

Yesterday my friends surrounded me with love.

Yesterday I opened up and took off my mask.

Yesterday was a time for contemplations about how precious life is. There has been a lot of human loss within in my life lately. The loss of JP. The horrific events within the LGBT community in Orlando. The questions of friendships not being what they seemed. The death of a friend. All of these losses have pushed me to think about how precious life is.

A lot of us take life for granted. I am guilty of this. Many of us go about our lives and just live without really noticing or being grateful for how wonderful our lives are. This has been me lately. I have just been living and focusing on myself and my problems. While I think that it has been necessary for me to do this because it has helped me move forward, it is also time to start noticing all of the good in my life and being grateful for the opportunities that I have and for the love from those around me. I've been a bit selfish and need to start being more selfless again.

Others out there are struggling with the desire to survive or the ability to survive. This realization makes me sad. It makes me sad that some people do not have the ability to survive because they don't have enough money for food, shelter, and protection. It makes me sad because some people feel like they are not loved, cared about, and supported. Every life is precious. Everyone deserves a chance to live life to the fullest and feel like they are loved and supported.

I wish that I could do more. I want to do more. I'm going to start reaching out to others more often with a simple hello and smile. I'm going to start talking to friends a bit more often to find out how they are truly doing. I'm going to continue to volunteer at my school's free medical clinic and volunteer more often with New York Cares. I hope that others will do the same.

Let's all work together to make this world a better place and help those in need of love, support, food, shelter, and so much more!

PS. I don't know who reads my blog anymore. I'm completely fine with that and kind of like the anonymity, but I want you all to know that I am grateful to have you in my life and supporting me. I hope that in a way that I am supporting you as well! I hope you know that your life is precious. If you ever need to talk to me about anything, feel free to email me or call me.