5 Minute Life Check: August

I was reading a blog the other day, which posed all of the questions below (plus my answers). The blogger said that she goes through these questions monthly as fast as she can (about 5 minutes) and answers them with whatever first comes to her mind. This is supposed to help her get a sense of where she is at in life. I'm going to start doing this on a monthly basis and record my progress here. It will be interesting to see how my life changes over the coming months, because I feel like there will be a lot of growth and changes occurring.

In other news, I've started writing simple poetry to allow me to express my feelings better. It is simple and nothing great, but I might share some of my better poems here. Anyway, below are the answers to my month check.

I think… about JP--why we didn’t work out and what I could have done better

I wonder… if I’ll ever find a man to spend the rest of my life with who loves me as much as I love him

I want… to find fulfillment in all aspects of my life

I dream… that one day I will have everything that I hope for and that I can make a lasting influence in the world

I speak… about how well I’m doing, when I’m really hiding behind a mask

I act… like my heart isn’t still broken and that I’m ready to move on and start over

I honor… myself by doing what I believe to be what is right

I cry… because I am still grieving my loss

I see… a future where I no longer will be grieving

I feel… as though there is good coming around the corner

I manage… to make it through work when I really am struggling to find motivation and fulfillment

I support… my labmates, my roommates, my friends, my family, my fish, and my plants

I seek… a greater knowledge that will bring me to a better understanding of the world and life

I find… that life is continually more difficult than I expect it to be

I teach… others by example and hope that I am making this world a better place

I learn… that I still have a lot of growing to do

I am… Sean, and I am a trophy husband and a catch

I smile… because despite everything, my life is good

I love… spending time with the ones that I love