A lot of people think I am crazy because I'm in love with hospitals. Whenever I see a big hospital I get really excited and want to run in there and see what's going on. It's almost an amusement park or museum for me or even a little boy in a candy shop. I become giddy as a school girl... people I'm with at the time find it hilarious.
This love of hospitals came to me as a child. I absolutely loved visiting people in the hospital. I loved watching doctors move around from room to room, ambulances pull up with their sirens blaring and light blazing, people coming out of the operating room, and the nurses taking vitals or doing lab work. I just loved it all. This love progressed when I was in the hospital for severe appendicitis during spring break. After my operation, I walked up and down the halls. I tried to see everything and would get in trouble for going into places that I wasn't allowed. It was so much fun! Then as I was touring hospitals during my visits to medical schools, I felt the same sense of awe and giddiness. It was where I was supposed to be. That's all I felt. Hospitals love me and I love them.
Currently, I am in a hospital. I wish I could explore it and see what is going on. Tragically, I am tied to an IV station to receive my Remicaid treatment for Crohn's Disease. However, just being the hospital makes me very happy! I'm weird like that, I guess. I was so giddy as I was walking up today. Secretly, I wanted to start skipping, but thought that it wouldn't be proper for me to do that.
Anyways, I'm not sure why I am writing about this. It might be because I'm bored, and because I am happy to be in the hospital. It might also be the fact that just being in the hospital gives me a sense of calling. It feels like home to me. So if you ever go on a vacation or trip with me, expect me to become very giddy when I see a hospital, especially if it is a big one!
Love me some hospitals...
Showing posts with label Crohn's Disease. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Crohn's Disease. Show all posts
Overly Stressed?
As many of you know, I have been still having problems with my Crohn's Disease. It's usually nothing too big, but lately it has been a huge problem. I never miss school--even when I was first diagnosed, I went to school when I was in severe pain. Then all of the sudden, the past couple of weeks have hit me like a brick and I've missed four days of school. Some mornings I wake up and feel like I have been hit by a car, train, or something. I can barely move because I'm in so much pain and/or I just feel so crappy that I don't want to get up--knowing that I have to. None of this is a good sign.
My doctor tells me that the medication I'm on is working just fine and that he can see no active Crohn's Disease. He has seen other potential problems but they are just potential and they should not be causing me that pain that I'm in. He even had the audacity to ask my mom if I was faking the pain just to get attention when I was knocked out with anesthetics. Thankfully my mom stuck up for me and put the doctor in his place. He thinks that I might be overly stressed. I took a stress test and everything came up fine. I will admit that I do have my fair levels of stress due to school and what not, but that is normal levels and it is usually every once in a while. I'm not sure if he thinks that I was lying on the test or not, but the only thing he thinks that is wrong with me is that I must be overly stressed and causing myself pain through IBS or small Crohn's flare-ups. He has given me IBS medication, but it has done nothing for me. I personally think that there is something more going on with my body. I shouldn't be feeling what I have been feeling for over a year now. It's really starting to bother me. I don't want to go take the MCAT when I'm feeling like crap because I know that I won't do as well. I need to do my best so I can get my 35 and go to one of my dream schools!
I've been trying to convince my mom to take me to another doctor, but she doesn't see the point. I think that I'm going to just go to one on my own so I can have another opinion. I think that there is something more wrong with me than the doctor thinks. UGH! Life sometimes really sucks.
What do you all think? Am I or do I seem overly stressed?
My doctor tells me that the medication I'm on is working just fine and that he can see no active Crohn's Disease. He has seen other potential problems but they are just potential and they should not be causing me that pain that I'm in. He even had the audacity to ask my mom if I was faking the pain just to get attention when I was knocked out with anesthetics. Thankfully my mom stuck up for me and put the doctor in his place. He thinks that I might be overly stressed. I took a stress test and everything came up fine. I will admit that I do have my fair levels of stress due to school and what not, but that is normal levels and it is usually every once in a while. I'm not sure if he thinks that I was lying on the test or not, but the only thing he thinks that is wrong with me is that I must be overly stressed and causing myself pain through IBS or small Crohn's flare-ups. He has given me IBS medication, but it has done nothing for me. I personally think that there is something more going on with my body. I shouldn't be feeling what I have been feeling for over a year now. It's really starting to bother me. I don't want to go take the MCAT when I'm feeling like crap because I know that I won't do as well. I need to do my best so I can get my 35 and go to one of my dream schools!
I've been trying to convince my mom to take me to another doctor, but she doesn't see the point. I think that I'm going to just go to one on my own so I can have another opinion. I think that there is something more wrong with me than the doctor thinks. UGH! Life sometimes really sucks.
What do you all think? Am I or do I seem overly stressed?
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